Bittersweet Memories

There comes a point when everything must either end or begin. Like meeting a friend, graduating high school, finishing your driving test; it can be anything.

Sometimes a goodbye is forever, and other times it’s not. For me, this isn’t forever. This isn’t even until I die or anything. This goodbye is simply goodbye for now, and I’ll see you again soon.

I’ve been here in Colorado Springs since February 4th and while the hello was a long time coming, and pretty amazing… the goodbye is bittersweet. I don’t really want to leave Colorado Springs, but at the same time, I really miss my boys. I really miss my life in Virginia too. I know I’ll move out here someday, but I can’t wait for that. For now, I’m going to pack up my bags, hug my best friend/sister goodbye, and I’ll head back to Virginia to my boys.

Liliana has been such a dream during our adventure out here, and I couldn’t have it any other way. She really is such an angel. I didn’t really have the mental capacity to compose myself enough to pull out my camera and vlog more. This daily vlogging deal that I want to start is a bit harder than I thought. Some people don’t want to be recorded, some locations don’t allow it (like stores oddly enough) and sometimes I just space. So it’s something I’m trying to come to terms with to handle better. Maybe I will, maybe not.

My time out here has been pretty incredible. I may not have gotten to see all of the things I wanted to see, but I know I’ll come out again. However, it doesn’t seem soon enough. The mountains are beautiful, and I won’t ever forget the view as I approached the Garden of the Gods. The mountains in the distance were like something you think you will never see in life. Like a 3D card, or a background wallpaper. It was beautiful and literally breathtaking.

Tami tells me it never gets old. I’m hoping that’s true because I need something like that. The view alone calms and relaxes me.

Well, until next time.

Stress

If I said the last 24 hours were like any other day I’d be lying. Usually, when stress enters my life, it’s for more than a few hours or a single situation. It’s always one thing, leading up to another thing. Let me tell you some information about why the last 24 hours has been full of chaos.

Monday night I only got 3 hours of sleep total. This wouldn’t be so bad, except Tuesday I had to get up to take my dog to the mobile PETA clinic to get her spayed. I also had to stay up because I had to pick her back up around 12:30. Not doing so would result in her being ‘abandoned’ and I’d lose her. She spent the entire evening whimpering and being too drugged to fend for herself.

Then the power went out.

Then we found out my dad got hospitalized due to pancreatitis. This lead to him being kept overnight, which evolved into a few days. One step at a time.

Then today we had an appointment for Liliana to get her tumor checked out.

After that, my friends came home from Mississippi to discover their cat had died due to a fall. The poor thing.

In my life, the first thing you’ll learn is that when stress starts, it avalanches until it’s entirely all in pieces on the floor. I’m left buried, and my family is left wondering if I’m alive and well.

I’ll be okay and all of this will blow over. I really don’t like when stress things start. It always feels like it never ends and I tend to come out of it with a few less friends than before.